Beyond Myself

Photograph by K*R Studio.

(Title : Fo-nyol a.k.a Foto Konyol)

Photograph by KiRa.

Saat meng-update postingan ini, pinggang gw lagi nyuut, nyuu~~tt...

Demikian pula paha dan betis..

Di sela-sela kesibukan dan kemorat-maritan hidup selama 4 bulan terakhir ini, gw berhasil ikut serta dalam photo session bagi grup ini..

Semoga keikutsertaan ini menjadi awal yang membawa berkah dan kebahagiaan bagi semua orang yang terlibat, termasuk saya sendiri.

Amieen..

The Song of This Day : Missing You ~ time to love by Tamaki Nami

Bertepatan dengan momen kasmarannya gw terhadap musik trance & electro, muncullah hit single terbaru dari musisi cantik nan seksi ini.

PV teaser-nya luar biasa loohhh!!
Please welcome this wondrous song!!

Memorable Cat : Lucifer a.k.a Geboy (an orbituary)

I'm not a cat person..

Sejak masuk kuliah, entah kenapa gw jadi sebel liat kucing..
Apalagi kucing yang air mukanya bossy..

Si Lucifer ini (benda gendut item putih di foto atas), merupakan kucing kesayangan Tata..

Kucing nyebelin ini udah dikastrasi.

Dan hal tersebut tampak dari ukuran perutnya yang membalon..

Btw, Lucifer ini punya nama asli.

Namanya Geboy..

Gw dan Pute yang ngasih julukan Lucifer.

Just FYI, Lucifer itu nama kucing antagonis di Disney's Classic Cinderella.

Tampilan si Geboy ini mirip banget ama Lucifer di film itu.

Sejak pertama kali ketemu gw ga suka ama si Lucifer..

Niy kucing gendut cuma sangar tampilannya aja (karena dia punya motif kumis Hitler).

Pernah suatu kali Tata membawa Lucifer ke kampus untuk diambil sample darahnya.

Trus niy kucing ketakutan banget sama aura asing laboratorium diagnostik di kampus.

Jadilah dia masuk ke kardus bekas wadah mikroskop dan mendekam di sana sepanjang hari.

Kan gw jadi gemez banget ngeliatnya..

Jadilah dengan iseng gw tendang-tendangin kardus tersebut sampe si Lucifer mengeong gemetar dan kabur keluar kardus..

Yah..

Memang kenangan gw bersama niy kucing gila ga begitu banyak..

Tapi tetap saja hati gw hancur saat mendengar Lucifer telah tiada..

Gw ga mau minta maaf karena sudah jahat terhadapnya selama ini..

Tapi, gw harap si Kucing Garong mau memaafkan karena gw ga ada di samping majikannya tercinta saat dia pergi menuju Feline Paradise.

Oversleep lyrics

Dedicated to Lucifer a.k.a Geboy

You are wishing to see the unicorn..

You are wishing to touch it’s silver horn..

I’ll make you happy, so I write this vow..

Someday, I’ll take you over the rainbow..

You live your life with brilliantly pure heart..

It’s time to take a rest and sleeping well..

I’ll stay and watch your sleeping face..

I can’t even say goodnight or goodbye..

Reff :

Let’s go to sleep, my friend..

Let’s fly to our dreams..

Let’s go swim overseas..

And sing it together..

Sleep tight all the nights, and..

You’ll find a peaceful land..

Never say goodbye ‘coz you’ll be in my heart..

Interlude :

My dearest friend..

I can hear your song, over the snowdrops curtain..

The echoes of your voice, twinkling beyond the rain..

You sing your last serenade for me..

You know i love you, eternally..

Sayonara..

You are wishing to..

To see the unicorn..

Something you should watch : Chloe and The Countess

Gw pernah jatuh cinta setengah mati pada orang yang salah..

Jatuh cinta yang bersifat destruktif..

Jatuh cinta yang kontradiktif..

Karena itu, gw tak bisa men-judge bahwa wanita-wanita di film ini berperilaku aneh..

Apakah loe pernah merasakan cinta seperti itu?

Tunggu review gw tentang 2 movie hebat ini..

Dari sudut pandang wanita yang pernah jatuh cinta hingga lupa diri..

The Song of This Day : Doughnut by Lillix

Ini adalah lagu Lillix saat mereka masih berupa 4 cewe yang luar biasa keren..

[sekarang mereka adalah 2 orang kakak beradik yang amazing]..

Dari dulu sampai sekarang gw bingung kenapa mereka memberi judul lagu ini Doughnut..

Tapi..

Mungkin lebih baik tak dipertanyakan..

(Soalnya saya juga malas menjawab kalo ada pertanyaan, kenapa RagnaRock judulnya RagnaRock?)

Well, anyway..

Please welcome my "song of this day"!

Doughnut Lyric by Lillix

I met 'em when I went away

Perfect things he'd always say

Made me feel like I was worthy

Told me on

The Day we meet

"No more longing for someone,

I'll be there no need to worry"

Months past, you'd ask me 'bout

The day oh I come home, oh please come home

Infatuation with him

Leave me this way, but don't take it away

Why should I spend my time on you?

I know you're gonna make me cry!

I know your kind, make up your mind, cause I can't

Read through the lines, you're making me sigh

Why should I spend my time on you?

As time went by

He gave up asking

Now I'm left to start the chase

Its too late he's losing patients

Its not my fault, its not my choice

What went wrong, cause something changed

Who's to blame when nothings different

I'm back, At last

And now he says he's calling me

Wait 'round 'till 3

No call, Typical

I've been through this before

I can't take anymore

Why should I spend my time on you?

I know you're gonna make me cry!

I know your kind, make up your mind, cause I can't

Read through the lines, you're making me sigh

Why should I spend my time on you?

Invited to his home decide to go

Watching me the whole night

Wait until the times right baby

Speaks to me, starts telling what he sees

"you are more 'girlfriend type', call me when I'm turning 23"

Asshole, asshole, asshole

Why did I waste my time on you?

All you could do was make me cry!

I know your kind make up your mind

Cause I cant

Read through the lines, your making me sigh

Why did I waste my time on you?

No More Brilliance in YOU ~ shallow poem by myself

Hey, hey..

By the way..

Setelah lama merangkak-rangkak..

Tersaruk-saruk memunguti harga diri yang sudah mengerak..

Di dasar bumi..

Aku berhasil menguburkan jenazah perasaan bodoh ini..

Fosil dari cinta yang dulunya kukira murni..

The Song of This Day : This is Goodbye by Lillix (Tigerlily album, 2010)

Hmm.. Band ini..

Gw berutang nyawa kepada mereka.

Karena rasanya, gw berhasil selamat melalui rimba prahara masa remaja berkat mereka.

Lagu pertama yang gw suka itu.. Tomorrow sama It's About Time..

Dalam perjalanan karier Lillix, banyak perubahan yang terjadi pada band ini maupun musik mereka.

Beberapa kali personel Lillix berganti.. Dan yang paling parah terjadi baru-baru ini..
Hux.. Kaget banget pas tahu bahwa personel Lillix tinggal 2 orang..

Hux, yang tak lain dan tidak bukan adalah Evin's Sister (pencipta Lillix).

Baru-baru ini juga mereka nambahin 3 orang cowo menjadi additional player.

Banyak fans yang protes, karena ini berarti Lillix bukanlah band cewe lagi..

Kalo buat gw sih, hal ini ga menjadi masalah..

Karena gw sendiri sudah mencintai Lillix secara tulen..

Btw,

Kejadian mengejutkan ini punya sisi positif.

Yap, gw jadi belajar bahwa ditinggal pergi personel lain bukan berarti mengurung diri di jurang keputusasaan..

Hohoho..

I will survive!!

Dan iniii...

Lagu pertama yang bikin jatuh hati di album ke-3 mereka, Tigerlily (2010).

Dan btw, mereka sekarang adalah band indie yang ga terikat dengan label apapun..

Fiuuhh.. 1000 acungan jempol untuk Tasha Ray dan Lacey Lee!!

I love you, girrllz!

THIS IS GOODBYE

BY: LACEY-LEE, TASHA-RAY (Lillix)

YOU SEE IT YOU WANT IT

THIS IS GOODBYE

YOU WANT IT

THIS IS GOODBYE

I LET YOU IN

GAVE YOU MY TIME

CALLED YOU A FRIEND

BECAME MY WHOLE LIFE

I NEVER KNEW

YOU COVERED MY EYES

CLEVER YOU

I BOUGHT INTO YOUR LIES

AND I TRIED TO MAKE IT RIGHT BUT YOU CHOOSE NOT TO HEAR

NOW IT'S TIME TO SAY GOODBYE

I CAN'T FORCE YOU TO FEEL

YOU SEE IT

YOU WANT IT

FORGET IT

THIS IS GOODBYE

I DON'T NEED IT

I MEAN IT

THE END OF MY LINE

LOST MY TRUST

HAD ENOUGH OF TAKING WHAT'S MINE

LET IT GO LET YOU KNOW

THAT THIS IS GOODBYE

BYE BYE BYE BYE

THIS IS GOODBYE

NOW I KNOW THE TRUTH

PLAYED ME LIKE A GAME

SET ME UP HAVE YOU NO SHAME

NOW I SEE WHY YOU TOOK CONTROL

YOU HOLD ME BACK SO I'D HAVE NOTHING AT ALL

AND I TRIED TO MAKE IT RIGHT BUT YOU CHOOSE NOT TO HEAR

NOW IT'S TIME TO SAY GOODBYE I CAN'T FORCE YOU TO FEEL

YOU SEE IT YOU WANT IT FORGET IT

THIS IS GOODBYE

I DON'T NEED IT I MEAN IT

THE END OF MY LINE

LOST MY TRUST

HAD ENOUGH OF TAKING WHAT'S MINE

LET IT GO LET YOU KNOW

THAT THIS IS GOODBYE

BYE BYE BYE BYE

THIS IS GOODBYE

OH WHEN THE LIGHTS GO

OH WHEN THE FLAME BLOWS OUT WHO WILL BE THERE

OH WHEN THE LIGHTS GO

WHO WILL REMAIN CLOSE BY TO WIPE YOUR TEARS

Ini bukan PV dari This Goodbye-nya Lillix, melainkan PV dari hit singlenya yang berjudul Nowhere to Run..

Dan lagu tersebut ga kalah keren dari This is Goodbye..

Just enjoy it!

No More Brilliance in Me ~ shallow poem by myself

Andai saja kau melihatku di sini..

Mengikatkan hatiku pada poison ivy..

Andai saja kau melihatku hari ini..

Terengah-engah merangkak memunguti serpih-serpih harga diri..

Mulai detik ini, kau bukanlah indahnya memori..

Begitu pula besok dan seterusnya, kau hanyalah buruknya mimpi..

Au revoir, sayonara, and this is goodbye...

Kuucapkan perpisahan untukmu, Gagak Hitam-ku..

Kuucapkan kesumat untukmu, Sang Pencuri akal sehatku..

Andai saja kau melihatku malam ini..

Memang aku tak sampai ingin bunuh diri..

Tapi aku kehilangan kilau brilian yang sejati..

The Song of This Day : Monster by Lady Gaga

Jangan pernah bertanya mengapa saya suka lagu ini....

Dan juga jangan bertanya mengapa saya menobatkan lagu ini menjadi Song Of The Day.

Just enjoy this wondrous song, please..

MONSTER lyrics

Don't call me Gaga

I've never seen one like that before

Don't look at me like that

You amaze me

He ate my heart, he a-a-ate my heart

(You little monster)

He ate my heart, he a-a-ate my heart out

(You amaze me)

He ate my heart, he a-a-ate my heart

He ate my heart, he a-a-ate my heart

Look at him, look at me,

That boy is bad, and honestly

He's a wolf in disguise

But I can't stop staring in those evil eyes

I asked my girlfriend if she'd seen you 'round before

She mumbled something while we got down on the floor, baby

We might've fucked not really sure, don't quite recall

But something tells me that I've seen him, yeah, before

That boy is a monster, m-m-m-monster

That boy is a monster, m-m-m-monster

That boy is a monster, m-m-m-monster

That boy is a monster

He ate my heart

(I love that girl)

He ate my heart

(Wanna talk to her, she's hot as hell)

He ate my heart

(I love that girl)

He ate my heart

(Wanna talk to her, she's hot as hell)

He licked his lips, said to me

Girl, you look good enough to eat

Put his arms around me

Said, "Boy, now get your paws right off me"

I asked my girlfriend if she'd seen you round before

She mumbled something while we got down on the floor, baby

We might've fucked not really sure, don't quite recall

But something tells me that I've seen him, yeah

That boy is a monster, m-m-m-monster

That boy is a monster, m-m-m-monster

That boy is a monster, m-m-m-monster

That boy is a monster

He ate my heart

(I love that girl)

He ate my heart

(Wanna talk to her, she's hot as hell)

He ate my heart

(I love that girl)

He ate my heart

(Wanna talk to her, she's hot as hell)

He ate my heart, he ate my heart

Instead he's a monster in my bed

He ate my heart, he ate my heart

Instead he's a monster in my bed

I wanna just dance but he took me home instead

Uh oh, there was a monster in my bed

We French kissed on a subway train

He tore my clothes right off

He ate my heart then he ate my brain

(I love that girl, wanna talk to her, she's hot as hell)

He ate my heart

(I love that girl)

He ate my heart

(Wanna talk to her, she's hot as hell)

That boy is a monster, m-m-m-monster

(Could I love him?)

That boy is a monster, m-m-m-monster

(Could I love him?)

That boy is a monster, m-m-m-monster

(Could I love him?)

That boy is a monster

That boy is a monster, m-m-m-monster

(He ate my heart )

(Could I love him?)

Something you should waiting for : Burlesque

Burlesque = "a humorous theatrical entertainment involving parody and sometimes grotesque exaggeration".

Love Is...

Aduh, saya tidak perlu mengatakan apapun di post ini..

Bisa merusak ambience..

Hanya 1 kalimat..

Love is.. Him..

Something you should listen : What The HELL by Avril Lavigne

Meskipun Avril masih keki karena nama parfum ciptaannya menjadi bulan-bulanan media, dia tetap masih bisa menciptakan lagu yang bagus..

[Single ini bakal muncul di album ke-4, Goodbye Lullaby].

Meskipun liriknya biasa saja, musik dan vocal dari single ini luar biasa..

Dan gw juga suka lagu ini, karena mengingatkan akan seorang teman gw yang seharusnya bisa bersikap seperti "cewe di lagu ini"..

Hux.. Wish she can read this post..

What The Hell lyric

You say that I'm messing with your head (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

All 'cause I was making out with your friend (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

Love hurts whether it's right or wrong (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

I can't stop 'cause I'm having too much fun (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You're on your knees

Begging please

Stay with me

But honestly

I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell

All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about

If you love me, if you hate me, you can't save me, baby, baby

All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

What... what... what... What the hell?

So what if I go out on a million dates (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You never call or listen to me anyway (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

I rather rage than sit around and wait all day (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

Don't get me wrong. I just need some time to play-ay (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You're on your knees

Begging please

Stay with me

But honestly

I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell

All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about

If you love me, if you hate me

You can save me, baby, baby

All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

La la la la la la la la... Woah... Woah...

You say that I'm messing with your head

Boy, I like messing in your bed

Yeah, I am messing with your head

When I'm messing with you in bed

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell (what the hell)

All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about (I don't care about)

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell

All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about. (if you love me)

If you love me (no), if you hate me (no)

You can save me, baby, baby (if you love me)

All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

La la, La la la la la la, La la, La la la la la la la

Epithapios ~ On The Gravestone of My Heart

You used to be my sanctuary..

My cream and sugar glazed jelly..

You used to be my lavender potpourri..

My pink marshmallow candy..

My dazzling galaxy..

You used to be someone important to me..

Now i know, everything about you and me is never meant to be..

So i dry my tears and wave goodbye for thee..

Something i should remember - Poem from The Past

Hari ini..

Gw baru buka-buka blog lama di FS..
Dan kemudian gw menemukan puisi sederhana ini..

Wheeew..

Ternyata gaya bahasa gw udah berubah lumayan banyak sejak dulu..

[rasanya gw yang dulu itu sering banget meledak-ledak (sering terlalu temperamental)]..

Ataukah gw yang sekarang menjadi terlalu datar?

Entahlah..Mungkin ini tanda penuaan diri..

Okey, selamat membaca puisi lama ini...

Yang sudah di-remake sedikit..

Little Difference of Us

Aku sudah membuat daftar “yang harus aku lakukan” :

Merencanakan sesering mungkin bertemu cinta sejatiku..

Memikirkan tujuan wisata kuliner untuk weekend ini..

Membayangkan sebesar apa rumah masa depan nanti..

Online hampir setiap jam..Tanpa tujuan yang cukup jelas..

Berdoa agar diberikan niat untuk mengerjakan laporan, atau belajar..

Mencari kostum indah yang gemerlapan..

Menjawab SMS dari ayah dan ibu…

Memohon agar ayah mau membelikan digital camera terbaru..

Mengaransemen lagu dan mampir ke coffee shop untuk membeli cheesecake brownies..

Membunuh waktu di kamar karaoke, hanya untuk melupakan amarah..

Dan dia.. Sedangkan dia..

Dia juga seusia denganku..

Banyak yang harus dia lakukan..

Dia harus memikirkan cara untuk mengembalikan uang yang dipinjam oleh ayahnya..

Dia harus mencari ayahnya yang kabur entah kemana..

Dia harus mengumpulkan uang agar adiknya bisa terus sekolah..

Agar ibunya bisa dibawa ke rumah sakit untuk diobati..

Pagi hari menjadi kuli di pasar..

Siang hari mencuci dan menyetrika baju di rumah tetangganya..

Sore hari dia harus menjajakan rokok atau mengamen dari satu bus ke bus yang lain..

Malam hari…Meski tak mau, ia harus merelakan dirinya yang berharga…

Meski tak mau, ia harus menahan tangis..

Meski tak sanggup, ia harus tetap hidup..

Karena hidup hanya sekali dan merupakan sebuah karunia..

Demi keluarganya yang tak sempurna..

Demi mempertahankan hidupnya yang sengsara..

Kenapa kau tak memilih kematian?

Hei, teman…Apakah kau punya impian?

Menurutmu, mengapa nasib kita begitu berbeda?

Menurutmu, mengapa kau yang menjadi kau dan aku yang menjadi aku?

Mengapa bukan aku yang berkelahi di tepian tjalan..?

Dan bukan kau yang tertidur di ruang kuliah?

Pernahkah kau membenciku?

Pernahkah kau membenci Tuhan dan meratapi nasib?

Sungguh aku merasa bodoh..

Bodoh karena pernah memilih mati hanya karena sakit hati..

Bodoh karena membuang uang demi menyembuhkan luka hati..

Mengapa waktu itu aku tak melihatmu?

Yang berjuang keras demi hidup..

Walaupun hidupmu tak indah dan tak nyaman..

Hei,teman..

Kita pernah saling berpandangan..

Walaupun dibatasi oleh kaca jendela mobilku..

Kita pernah saling menatap…

Walau dijauhkan oleh jurang dalam bernama perbedaan..

Lambat laun aku mengerti..

Bahwa kita memang sengaja ditakdirkan berbeda..

Agar hidupku bisa berguna untukmu..

The Song of This Day : Run Devil Run by Girl's Generation

Kalo menurut Tiara Putri Sajuthi [TPS], teman saya yang lumayan sinting, hanya ada 2 tipe cowo di muka bumi ini.

Yang pertama adalah cowo gay..

Yang selanjutnya adalah cowo bajingan..

Sebagai orang yang beruntung mendapatkan pacar berupa spesimen cowo langka, gw ga begitu percaya sama opini teman gw, si TPS itu.

Namun belakangan, si TPS mengakui bahwa partner gw ga termasuk dalam kedua kategori itu.

Dan dia mengakui bahwa partner gw adalah cowo yang langka..

Tapi..

Well, baru-baru ini gw menemukan seorang cowo JERK lagi di lingkungan sekitar gw..

Dan setelah diingat-ingat sebagian besar mant*n pacar gw adalah tipe cowo yang kedua.

[Belon pernah siy, jadian sama yang tipe pertama]..

Cowo JERK yang gw sebut-sebut tadi itu lumayan [ga denk, sangat] jago menutupi ke-jerk-annya.

Dia memakai kedok cowo shaleh bin alim.

Tapi ternyataaa...

Setelah nyaris 1 tahun bergaul dengan dia, gw baru menyadari bahwa dia itu J.E.R.K bangget.

Mulai kemarin, kami menyebutnya si Jeruk..
Plesetan dari J.E.R.K.

Dan, wahai si Jeruk..

Ini adalah lagu yang pas sekali buat Anda..

Run Devil Run (English Translation)

Do it right. You're really a bad boy, only having curiosity rather than love.

Because of you, I've been fooled the entire time.

You're no fun, you have no manners. You're a devil, devil you are.

So many men that are in your phone are girls with only one letter changed.

The perfume smell that's sickening to my nose, tell me whose it is.

You didn't fix that terrible habit of seeing people behind my back?

No matter how much you run, you're still in my hands.

You better run run run run run

I can't see this anymore, so I'm going to reject him.

You better run run run run run

Even if he hangs on to me, I'll just ignore Hey

On the day that I become a great person, I'll get my revenge.
Don't forget.

You better run run run run run

You got caught, you teased me.

Run devil devil run run

Even when you're by my side, you always look at other girls.

When I'm not there, you're a super playboy.

Lift your head up and answer me.

You're no fun, you have no manners.

You're a devil, devil you are.

There is no one like me.

I'm disappointed that you tried to trick me.

I'm much better than all of them.

What are you going to be if you keep acting like that?

(I told you not to fool around) I told you to do well while I loved you.

You better run run run run run

You better run run run run run

I can't stand seeing you anymore. I'll kick you away.

You better run run run run run

You better run run run run run

Even if you grab a hold of me, I'll ignore you Hey

I'll get my revenge when I become a greater person, don't you forget it

You better run run run run run

You better run run run run run

Half of the world are men, it makes no difference if you're gone.

I'm going to wait by myself for a guy who will only look at me...

a Happy Bunny Year - 2011